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[Jan. 30th, 2005|03:50 pm] |
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| | mirah- sweepstakes prizes | ] |
friday night. tilly and the wall and bright eyes.
amazinglyterrificlyawesomelyspectacular.
only i didnt fit in at all and maybe its because i dont wear eyeliner and i dont have bangs or an eating disorder or depression or a myspace. and if thats what being "scene" is all about then im just fine. but even though i didnt fit in, i did end up knowing a bunch of kids there. madatz04 reprezent. and if hearing tilly in the wall is a turn on, seeing them is a fucking orgasm. the tap dancer is so pretty, the idea of it is so pretty. i want to tap dance so badly now haha (just like i want to play harmonica...and banjo...and ukelele yeah thatd be p i m pa and then id get all the ladies) and it made it better because i got to spend it with my love. (yes im winking at you). bright eyes was also pretty awesome but not tear-worthy (BURN). replay? mmhmmm.
-i love you conor!
-SLUT.
zinggggggggggg. i hated it when he became political and i dont want to fight anyone on this cough katie cough thats just how i feel. i just think it made his songs worse or detracted from them somehow. end of discussion. but its ok because his other stuff is just fine. just just fine. haha and these emo kids got up and danced in the aisle which is hard because it was in this old opera house and everyone started laughing at them. HA. and he was bingedrinking and spazzing. and do i identify? oh yes.
today i sat with caroline slama at lunch. slama-rama. slamatron. slamenator. the possibilities are endless.
heh. rachel smith. sighhh.
i stayed up till 1 am last night coloring pictures. love love love. |
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| rockin the suburbs. |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|12:16 am] |
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| | bright eyes- from a balance beam | ] |
i decided that i need to talk more about nothing.
midterms go aight as long as you dont take them too seriously. then it gets...erm. serious? and thats just trouble, believe you me. and right now we have many things to talk about. like how im seeing bright eyes and tilly in the wall in two days with my one and only aryan lovah. score. and erm hannah i booked us a ride home. shwing. tonight i watched aladdin with bess. i love being a little kid. this week already ive made cookies, colored piglet in space and watched disney. stayin young, baby, stayin young. oh yeah and last weekend there was much snow and we went sledding hurrah! but to be honest, i dont really like sledding because it makes my stomach do flip-flops so i only went a couple of times heh but it was muthafuckin awesome. yeah i know im a pussy. rock and roll. haha (rules of attraction, anyone?) but it was really pretty and when i was walking, no one was outside and everything was just covered in snow. and the traffic lights were on but there were no cars. it was so pretty. ahhhhhhhh my parents are letting me backpack europe this summer with pals. SHWING. jealous? oh i'd say so. spain and greece and italy and also maybe a little of france and also amsterdam. gonna pee myself like those women on opra when they get the new book. jeez. but man im so excited. and thats why i cant spend anymore money. not counting the tilly tshirt that i will be pimping. and my camera is broken which means no photo sluttage for quite some time, being the strumpet i am and all. haha strumpet. harlot. tart. hahaha tart mmmmm poptarts.
and this is what ive realized.
1. aladdin is a p i m p.
2. oh oh and now when people ask me what animal id want to be, it would be an otter. theyre so muthafuckin on top of the world. (thank you mr. rosazza)
3. french is the language of suave.
4. and now for my profound lj wisdom: dont take yourself too seriously. honestly. its a waste of life. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|03:24 pm] |
ITS HER BIRTHDAY Y'ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
::pees herself::
happy birthday.
you are my wonderful.
i love you. |
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[Jan. 11th, 2005|03:46 pm] |
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| | innocence mission. tomorrow on the runway. | ] |
friday the ol crew came to play. hung around and then went to see oceans 12 and part of its in rome and theres this part when theyre in the car driving past circo massimo and i got turbo super excited only then everyone told me to shush. ch-ch-POOM.saturday i saw the life aquatic <3 (AND THERE ARE PHILIPPINO PIRATES HIYA!) and then taped jess walthew to a tree with joe and mark cochrane. it looks a little something like this (inspired by hannah, my aryan lover)
it was pretty awkward until i forced everyone to watch aquateen hunger force. then it was all good, as expected.
sunday i went running with besser. felt good to get out again, but seems like superior intellect strikes again as we waited until the winter...? i was winded before i got off my street. hurumph. and we decided to steal this baby jesus from a nativity scene. morally wrong yes but honestly...
yesterday after work i went to the school board meeting with jess and then to tea at cc's but we made too much noise with the dinosaur battle that we got kicked out. sigh. TRICERITOPS.
and friday halfday but i dont think im gonna go. heh. well see. and ermm dara and hannah coming for a bit of lovin sunday night coupled with a soiree.
its gonna be a nice weekend. |
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| topsy turvy roller coasta |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|09:42 pm] |
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| | miracle drug. ac newman. | ] |
whatever makes you cry can be saved by 2 milkshakes
amen. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 2nd, 2005|07:31 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | pheonix- run run run | ] |
shortest week of my life.
got out thursday, smoked up and watched napolean dynamite...yeah girls only like boys with skills. you know, cross bow skills, cumputer hacking skills, nunchuk skills. friday we went to have xmas dinner with my dads family in wilmington. suburbs of the suburbs. ticky tack? id say so although im not one to talk. heh. saturday we flew to florida. spent the next week swimming, shopping, beaching, badmittoning (i ruleee), shuffleboarding, and smoking on the beach. huzzzah. <3 sam. if he wasnt there, id keel of boredom and youth. honestly, you have to be over 80 to live there. jeez. sam had "pilfered some of my dads marijuana paraphanelia" which ended up in our hiding out on the beach from the damn seagulls (rats with wings) and waging the epic battle of the lobster claw. hurumph! but as always, my championness always gets me the win. and then we made a REMIX on garageband. <3mac. props to sam on the muzak.
new years was spent over champagne (sick)and cAHHHviar. classy, eh? meet the grandparents. in the kinda of house where you feel like if you breathe youll break something. but id give anything to be there over some getting "reats" in some trashy hotel like the entire senior class of lower merion high school. we got home last night after a layover in atlanta. never ever thought id be in georgia. lord. and i slept ova at bess' after a night of mean girls and dressup. yes. dressup. <3.
good times were had by all. |
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| HIYA |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
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[Dec. 12th, 2004|01:31 pm] |
hurrah for me.
hurrah for being done highschool.
hurrah for being in new york next year.
the end. big sigh. |
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| ...yeah youd better start singing along... |
[Dec. 5th, 2004|05:28 pm] |
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| | tilly and the wall- shake it out. | ] |
my life is happy. happy. happy.
friday night bess' moms open with besser and greg. met all of celias artsy friends, they all ask about rome. they all say "oh i wont ask you about college, im sure everyone asks you about that" and then they lean in and dont say anything until you feel so awkward that you just volunteer the information. oh man. someone thought i was greg's little sister. someone thought i was dating him. heh. bess slept ova after because she had so many people staying at her house. it felt good, it had been a while. oh yeah and she has a turbo setting on her car. HA. get better.
saturday was synogogue and then right to work. and then right to the train station to go downtown and then to jenkintown for dara's 18th surprise birthday party. god i love that girl. we went to this awesome chinese place and i couldnt stop laughing and i tried shrimp for the first time but i just felt like i was eating ocean water. sick. then we went to arielles for a little but got kicked out because there were too many kids there so we drove to tonis where we all sat around and chilled and listened to music and all 7 of us cuddled in one bed. and dustin came later and he was really drunk and was trying really hard to hide it by reading the paper. and then dara and hannah and i went to sleep in her brothers sketch room. thennnn we woke up super early to catch the train and i came home and did some work and then went to drivers ed and then alli called and we went to mapes to get stickers for my duct tape wallet im gonna make and then to genaurdis for sushi and then to these kids house only i didnt know them but they were really nice and we got to color with his 96 box of crayola crayons and play a weird version of mario. and they were all really stoned. and then dinner for my dads birthday. and ready? drumroll please....
bright eyes and tilly and the wall. jan 28. row f. yes. fucking row f. |
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| i win. |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|12:31 am] |
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[Nov. 29th, 2004|10:48 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | the shins- girl on the wing | ] |
wowzah. i spent tuesday and wednsday moving into my house. which. erm. isnt done. at all. but they took the furniture out of the rental house so we had no choice. my moms losing it. no furniture. no lights in some rooms. one working toilet. only mattresses. and no food. kinda like suburbanite camping out. heh. only perk is unpacking boxes i havent seen since before i left for rome and its kinda fun finding really old stuff. little treasures. like beads and books and jewelry and really old motown cds. <3. shutup. its what i was raised on jerk.
thursday.
the great day of thanks. was spent in dc. with my dads 8 siblings. and all their kids. ben came down and we drove up. mom and dad in front, rachel, skin so soft (aka shula) and ben squished in the back seat. fun times were had my all. we stayed with my rich aunt. in the kind of house where you feel like if you move you'll break everything. kinda nervewracking. so i just took naps a lot. and there was a surprise anniversary party for my grandparents with the entireeee fam. which is (counting. will take a while) at least 42, i lost count somewhere. and my cousin whos a senior in college brought his friend from sri lanka ramanan was there and me and emilykate drove to this super ghetto supermarket called shoppers to get more alcohol. ultra sketch. and they were all drunkand singing motown. ha. get better. and we were at my ultra hippy aunts house. a different one. i have 6 of em. and she had signs on her house like "war is not the answer" and a huge rainbow flag with pace. sigh rome. ohhh tacoma. and ben and i went all round town. went to georgetown. thought of emin. went to dupont. thought of laura. went to tacoma. thought of laura. went to the mall. we went to the cheesecake factory = sunshine of life. went to union to see the incredibles with ben. and these huge black guys in back of us were cracking up the whole time. gotta love it. and we took the metro. thought of rome. since philly has the crappiest metro eva. emilykate says i can come back and shell show me the kickass dc. only i know it wont be. sigh.
seems i missed a lot of stuff with school friends. i feel bad sometimes because i never really hang out with them anymo. i dont know. today i ate lunch with bess and brian and alli and nikki. highlight of day. theyre so fun. <3 new people. and ive been introduced to mirah. dyke from bala cynwyd (represent) with reallly really pretty voice.
oh man crush crush crush. just gets worse....or better? boh. i like crushes. theyre fun.
that and buzz burnt me so many cds over break <3
tilly and the wall-wild like children
the shins- oh, invisible world
frank zappa-cheap thrills
q & not u- different damage
built to spill- theres nothing wrong with love
the pixies- surfer rosa.
gotta love the kid.
and now greg drives me to school. woot woot.
and this weekend is gonna be bangin (hannah). bess' mom's art open downtown friday. and saturday i have both jess' and dara's birthday parties. and i definately have to go to daras because hannah (and dara?) are sleepin on ova. not exactly sure how thats working but ill think of something. i am the champion after all... |
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| shwiggity shwoe |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|09:14 pm] |
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| | group x- shfifty five | ] |
So come on baby let's dance
Get your body in motion
I don't want this to end
I don't want to climb those stairs and go to bed
Oh won't you please just try to dance with me tonight
Slide your left foot in, kick your right foot out
Swing your hip to the left, swing it all the way around
Bob your head back and forth, side to side, left then right
Shake it out
<3
wellllll this weekend was super fun. fri i went junior league with buzz and wad and we watched the outsiders <3 matt dilon. we went to santa fe and they were playing maps. impressive, eh?THE INCREDIBLES. SEE IT. NOW. sat night i was at roeys with my whole shichvah. lev was super duper sketch which made me feel all queasy inside but then i got to snugg with roey <3 slash be forcefully snugged. ha and family guy. thank god for camp folks. honestly. ps- ive never hurt my lungs so much in one night heh. sunday drivers ed and packing for MOVING DAY. erm. craving IHOP, tasty bastard of a pancake house. and senioritis sets in now.
ps- revival of the shfifty five. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2004|08:55 pm] |
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| | NO DOUBT. YESSSSSSS | ] |
i hate this feeling that ive had for a while that i just get upset at the slightest thing and i dont know why. someone just asks me how i am and i get that knot in my throat. and i dont even know what it is. i think it might be whats going on with besss. i dont even know what happened. im just sick of being made fun of all the fucking time. like yeah, ok its funny but im so fucking sick of it. and i dont know how to get the point across anymore. skdjfnsdf. you cant except people to hang out with you if your mean and talk smack.
moral of the story:
i <3 nice people. le fin.
and thats why i love cc. because shes so nice and she makes me laugh. such a good end to a really shitty day. went to dolphin with cc and buzz and steph. and then cc drove me and buzz to the irish bread shoppe to see if cara was there to say happy birthday and katie was working. and we had a honey fight which was bad because i got honey on my face but then i wiped it on buzz. and i had to assert my shotgun rights. i VETO all powers that be. then we drove to geNARDS.to get some pictures from my birthday when cc and steph and i worked manayunk and coinstar and llanerch. they just make me happy. i just couldnt stop laughing. and thats how its supposed to be. none of this my getting upset at every little thing shit. i <3 cc. and buzz. because they make me laugh. and not cry.
laura called today. automatically makes it a good day. only i didnt finish my work so no israeli dancing for tonight.
and i love new people. because you dont know them so every little thing thats awesome about them surprises you.
ps- scandel in lower merion high school. the senior superlatives for the yearbook were rigged. SCANDELOUS |
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[Nov. 17th, 2004|08:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | shulas funeral song. | ] |
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| | shula reading the paper outloud to "educate" me | ] |
quand il me prend dans ses bras
et il me parle tout bas
il me dit les mots d'amour
les mots de tout les jours
et ca me fait quelque chose
sigh.
memorizing love songs for french class doesnt help.
and i feel like im being taken for granted lately.
wish i was there for wellness day. so we could get more free pens.
cant wait for saturday. |
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| damn higher learning. |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|10:28 pm] |
i am a mixmasta.
as well as THE DESTROYER (which I have been so appropriately named)
robins in. shes done with highschool. im just waiting to hear back.
december has never felt farther away... |
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| lets unravel the edge of time and prove some postulations right. |
[Nov. 7th, 2004|10:08 pm] |
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| |  all the hamstahs are the same | ] |
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| | mates of state- abercrombie | ] |
ok. so. work at coopermarket. come home. call bess. bess comes. we get to play dress up. i get to wear my heart dress and my moms red heels. and we go to robins where people are getting drunk before the dance. but we dont drink. i just finish off ronas. and we decide not to to go the dance. so then we pick up buzz and wad from borders. and then we drive and get steph. and then we went back to my house to fashion a bong. but i didnt want to smoke at my house because my mom would be able to tell. she can tell anything. if you dont believe me, listen to this. wad had a bagel. i come home the next morning and my mom says, "rachel, did you have friends over at all, because there was a sesame seed on the table." yeah. so there. 21938239th sense. so wad made us an apple bong and I drove to the benrubis but first we stopped at wawa and got some chips and watah and we saw julie there. shabang. and thennn we drove to the berubis old apartment and we smoked 3 bowls on the roof. and steph was paranoid the whole time which really annoys me. and then we came back to my house and had a dance partay to nelly/singalong. and bess started to bug out so I got to drive again. we dropped off the benrubz and then wad and besser and i went to greg and zachs and watched mean girls. and then we dropped wad off. and i slept ova at besses. wake up. go move some boxes into the burnt down house. movin day. novemba24th, baby. read invisible man. drivers ed at 1. then i got pirated and taken to ikea to go mattress shopping so that when we move in we have something to sleep on. greatttt. mattress shopping, woot woot. only mini surprise was i ran into anton frodo kovalsky. uh. his parents gave him the middle name because they love lotr so much. ha.
the end.
and im ready for something else.
nyc. hannah? |
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| i want to see it when you find out what commets stars and moons are all about |
[Nov. 6th, 2004|01:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | built to spill-car | ] |
huzzzzzzzzah.
friday night.
i went with andrew benrubs, steph, and wad (aka jess. hope. wad of hope. ha.) downtown to get burmese food.mmm.
and i went to the deerhoof concert.
and the music is so loud that the floor vibrates and you can feel your legs shaking.
and theres a little asian woman screaming into the microphone.
ha.
and tonight theres a school dance. might possibly be smoking and then going with bessers.
i dont really want to go though. they give me a stomachache.
and hannah and i decided that semi crushes are the best because youre not obsessive or too embarressed to talk to them but its enough to make your knees go all wobbly...sigh. |
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| lists. |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|01:15 pm] |
i dont know why, but ive been making listss a lot. hmmmm
things i hate:
gym tryers
music snobs
our school library. its a prison with no books
airplane food
scary movies
ANARCHY
horoscopes
stressmastas
numberos
kolidge
when gum loses its flavor
games shows
wednsdays
hardcore fake blong hair and fake tans all in one. they make me want to throw up
nosebleeds
things i like:
pudding.
substitutes
boondocks
wkw. i cant help it.
talking with a lithp
unicorns
being a flower
being a senior. woot woot.
birthday parties
people who talk to themselves but arent crazy. like the kid behind me in math.
gray hair on youngins
awkward moments:
1. when your sitting in a chair but your legs are on the wrong side of the bar and you want to put them on the right side so you swing them up and ova but flail a little in the process.
2. getting out of the pool by putting your leg out first and then pulling yourself up beached whale style.
3. when youre walking down the hall and you realize youre perfectly in sync with someone...and...uh...yeah....wkw
4. when youre whispering/making faces/smiling at someone across the room and the person in front of the person youre doing these things to thinks youre doing it to them.
5. nosebleeds. everythingggg about them is awekward.
is it just me? haha, wouldnt be surprised |
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| i can actually hear my dad snoring 2 floors below. heh. |
[Nov. 1st, 2004|09:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
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| | mates of state- whiners bio | ] |
i have no school tomorrow. staff development day. or as mikey puts it staff winkkkk development winkkkk day.
and yet. im not doing anything toinght. i wanted to hang out with alli. i dont know. im kinda nervous about asking her.skdjfn
i dont knwo. like all my friends are busy. mostly at a birthday dinnah. oh well. and bess is away. i dont know why i feel lonely. i hung out with nancy tonight, thank god for nancy. the end. i dont know what made it that awesome except that we just drove around. i dont know, i really like driving. or maybe it was just that we had no place to go, nowhere we had to be. or maybe because my friends would neverrrr just drive around. they just always need something to do. and maybe i like that. yeah. nancys just refreshing. i like it. and sometimes i really need it.
got a copy of team boo. amazing. theyre so good. gah, they were so good in concert. yeah and joan of arc. who i dont really like that much.
errr im getting a little too emo than id like. time to make a mix tape. errr boom box in shulas room. figures. i decided that awesome people deserve a mix tape alla rachel. starting with nancy.
i was inspired. i finally took those beads i pirated from the melechet yad and made a bracelet. and its awesome.
AHHH
NOSEBLEEDDDDDDDDD. goddamn. |
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| un coup de poing |
[Oct. 31st, 2004|01:59 pm] |
friday i went to school dressed as a flower for halloween. it was absolutely ridiculous but i dont think id ever been happier in school.
i left after third so i wouldnt have to take french and APES tests. came home. did work. played guitar. slept.
left for the synogogue around 6 for services and dinner. ben came home. all the cousins were in. hadnt seen them in over a year.
i feel like everytime i see sam he just gets cooler and cooler. hes so ridiculous. i can be super weird around him and its all good. which makes me really happy. and i felt bad because the closer i feel to sam the farther i feel from hannah. and we're all the same age, we've been a trio since forever, but theres a clear split.
and visiting with all these people made me realize that there are only so many adults who i really like talking to. like yeah youre nice to them but how many of them would you go spend your free time with. not that many. so when you find a really awesome one, its nice. i dont know, i guess i like finding adults who dont talk to you like youre a little kid.
and i met bens girlfriend. i dont know, it was kind of weird. shes really pretty. really simple and plain pretty, not gorgeous babe pretty. and she was really nice, talked to shula a lot = points with the family. she was nice and stuff but not someone id be friends with. but i definately approve (because it matters and all). and he had a couple other friends from school who said i should go down and visit them in nyc and get trashed. righttt. and they dont smoke. elizabeth used to but she stopped. id want to bring down a friend. need to think of one. not bess though. i dont know. maybe rona?
ok and then saturday was the big service and lunch and everyone was there. and bess and rona came from school and toni and dara came from camp and then hannah and sam and we were a pretty big group. its weird to be a big kid because i dont feel like ive grown up but i know i have. everyone told me i look so much older, taller, more grown up etc. since before i left to rome. yeah i guess. i dont know.
afterwards i took advantage of having family at the hilton and i went over and swam...sort of... with hannah and sam. only hannah talked on her cell phone for a lot of it. but then we went and watched friends and i got to get dressed up in my heart dress for the party. and just being in that dress makes me feel awesome.
the party was fun only because we could be weird and have fun freaking out all the middle schoolers. sam and i ripped up that dance floor like it was our job. and then we ruled coke/pepsi until he tripped and fell. hahaha. oh man. and then we decided to get a couple drinks so we got some wine and then just kept dancing. only people kept asking me about living in rome and i had to think really hard. we didnt get home until rreally super duper late. and i crashed.
and then this morning we had a brunch for all the out of town family friends. i just wanted to sleep i was so exausted. missed drivers ed.
and before i tell this story, you just need to know that my grandma is one of the most bitter people i know, shes gets really mad and then keeps it inside and then it comes out. and its the worst. like nothing else. and my mom especially cant handle it. because she tries so hard and then after a while its like she just stopped caring. because she could never get it right. ok so when theyre leaving my grandma (moms mom) makes a biting remark to my mom who gets upset (reasonably) and says "is there anything nice you can say about the mat mitzvah?" and my grandma being old and senile turns her back and leaves. my mom looks like shes about to cry. my mom just stands there and says "shes such a bitch. i cant believe her." shula and i and elizabeth (bens girlfriend) and my dad are sitting there and its super awkward for elizabeth so i look at her and half smile and i think that made her feel a little less awkard. maybe its just because i feel really awkward when im in a room and someone elses family is fighting. so anyway. ben comes out of the bathroom. he misssed the whole thing, naturally. i play my mom a song to make her feel better. but shes crushed, i can tell. and it makes me feel que j'ai recu un coup de poing dans l'estomac. |
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